love hurts

It's not ok...it is just not right. I love you too much and this started to hurt. I'm tired of explaining myself all the time, tired of being the negative character in this relationship , I can't argue anymore. I feel strange , I feel like a guy that is having an affair and is always trying to find some excuses , I feel so bad, like I'm the bad person that does not care. I feel like I started to loose the time that I used to spend with you . I feel that I'm hurting you and this makes me so sad, I don't want to do that...I don't what to hurt you. And I don't know what to do...how to balance this.

I feel like I'm powerless some times ...we started to argue almost every day...this is not right... it just makes me weaker.
All the I love you’s seem so different now ...they are full with pain ...being afraid of the unknown future :(.
I'm thinking about the time when it was the other way around...you were with your work and we would not see each other so often because of that, and I was the one feeling pain and pointless ...and now it all turned around. And is even more painful cause I am the one that cause the situation ..and I don't know what to do.
I feel so stupid and so bad...nothing makes sense now...what is the point of getting something you want if you might loose the things you had?
Maybe sometimes you just have to say no...I don't want to loose it.
What is the secret of getting balance between professional and personal life?