Peace

Am inceput sa regasesc echilibrul. Mi-a lipsit in ultima perioada , dar acum a inceput sa isi faca din nou loc in viata mea...si ma bucura asta.
Ma simt impacata cu mine insumi si cu cei din jur , ma simt bine.
Seara trecuta a fost una deosebita, petrecuta in compania unor oameni minunati cu care imi doresc sa am ocazia sa impartasesc cat mai multe experiente similare. Ne-am adunat la povesti si ne-am uitat la un film. Nu mi-am dat seama cum , dar timpul a zburat si noi nu ne mai terminam povestile...am ras, ne-am simtit bine,am dezbatut , a fost o adevarata sinergie. La un moment dat ne-am adus aminte de motivul pt care ne-am intalnit : sa vedem filmul Peaceful Warrior . La inceput am fost foarte sceptica, in sensul ca era deja 2 noaptea , noi eram obositi si vroiam sa ne uitam la un film...mare provocare. Totusi trebuie sa recunosc ca a fost o idee foarte buna (asta neinsemnand ca uni din noi nu au "atipit" :P ).
Ce mi-a transmis acest film cel mai bine? Traieste fiecare moment...nu trai in trecut, viitor, pentru un scop sau un obiectiv care crezi ca iti va aduce fericirea. Fericirea o poti avea in fiecare moment, doar sa realizezi acest lucru si sa te bucuri de ea. Traieste acum...

Asta imi doresc si eu ...sa traiesc aceste clipe care nu se vor intoarce si sa dau totul din mine pt aceste momente si sa nu astept sa mi se ideplineasca un anumit obiectiv pentru a fi fericita. Sunt fericita acum, in acest moment, scriind acest post cu laptopul in brate, intr-o camera deosebit de curata si placuta , ascultand muzica indiana.


Eu sunt acest moment


Socrates: Where are you?
Dan Millman: Here.
Socrates: What time is it?
Dan Millman: Now.
Socrates: What are you?
Dan Millman: This moment.

love hurts

It's not ok...it is just not right. I love you too much and this started to hurt. I'm tired of explaining myself all the time, tired of being the negative character in this relationship , I can't argue anymore. I feel strange , I feel like a guy that is having an affair and is always trying to find some excuses , I feel so bad, like I'm the bad person that does not care. I feel like I started to loose the time that I used to spend with you . I feel that I'm hurting you and this makes me so sad, I don't want to do that...I don't what to hurt you. And I don't know what to do...how to balance this.

I feel like I'm powerless some times ...we started to argue almost every day...this is not right... it just makes me weaker.
All the I love you’s seem so different now ...they are full with pain ...being afraid of the unknown future :(.
I'm thinking about the time when it was the other way around...you were with your work and we would not see each other so often because of that, and I was the one feeling pain and pointless ...and now it all turned around. And is even more painful cause I am the one that cause the situation ..and I don't know what to do.
I feel so stupid and so bad...nothing makes sense now...what is the point of getting something you want if you might loose the things you had?
Maybe sometimes you just have to say no...I don't want to loose it.
What is the secret of getting balance between professional and personal life?

Cristina, your dream job is to be President - click to make it yourself

 

Unlike some people, your dream job doesn't involve lying on the beach somewhere or being paid to take naps. No, you love to get things done and get them done right (or at least, your way). That's why your dream job is to be president! Can't you just picture it? Being in charge and making the really important decisions? Changing the world each and every day? And forget about flying coach — you've got Air Force One. We bet that sounds like heaven for a driven go-getter like you.

Of course you don't have to come in first at the polls to succeed. As long as you remember to keep asking questions and demanding change, your vision can still help make the world a better place.

P.S:a nu se interpreta nimic legate de AIESEC, e doar un test ;)

Cristina, your secret to success is to be Ambitious - click to do it yourself

 


You have high aspirations for your life and tend to expect the best from yourself and those around you. Because of your ambition, it's also likely that you've developed a pretty clear vision of your future and are working steadily to achieve it. Sitting back waiting for opportunities isn't your typical style. In fact, the people around you can probably spot the "can-do" attitude that glows from within you from a mile away.

Your ambition puts you in a good light in front of colleagues who probably view you as extremely resourceful and driven. They see this in you each time you make a quick decision or draft up a new plan before it's even asked for. For you, sitting around and waiting for the next project to drop from the sky is not a way of life.

Amalgam de ganduri

           Ce ciudat ma simt....e o combinatie de bucurie si tristete care doare. Iti multumesc !!!

Sunt atat de multe lucruri care imi trec prin cap in acest moment si nu stiu cum as putea sa le aranjez...ma simt din nou doborata ...de mine. Imi e frica de mine...Gresesc...foarte tare...nu imi place sa mi se spuna asta, nu imi place sa gresesc ...dar o fac...am gresit si gresesc enorm...fata de oamenii din jurul meu si fata de mine. Ma doare asta...si ma doare si mai tare ca stiu ca nu o sa ma pot schimba dintrodata si cu siguranta nu o sa pot elimina toate lucrurile rele.
Imi cer scuze tuturor celor care le-am gresit : Steli, Ilinca, Dey, Ale, Roxi, Larisa, Victor,Diana, Emil, Anusca, Ariadna,Cips,Adriana, tata, MAMA, sora mea si tot ceilalti pe care i-am ranit sau le-am gresit. Imi dau seama doar acum ca s-a intamplat sa fac rau, cand imi doream sa fac bine. Imi dau seama ca perfectionismul e o cale sigura spre esec... imi dau seama ca nu e atat de important ca totul sa iasa cum imi doresc eu, imi dau seama cat sunt de singura...si cat de mult v-am putut indeparta...imi dau seama ce important e sa fii sincer... imi dau seama ce important e sa ai incredere in ceilalti oameni...ca nu e atat de important sa fii cel mai bun...ca lumea se comporta cu tine ca o oglinda a ceea ce faci tu...ca e greu pana ce incepi...ca e greu sa te schimbi...realizez doar acum cum ma percep cei din jur...si doare. Imi dau seama ce important e sa ii las pe oameni sa ma cunoasca ma bine...ca e ok sa fii vulnerabil in fata altora. Ce gresit e sa critici si sa le arati oamenilor tot timpul ce fac gresit sau sa ii ghidezi spre a face cum iti doresti tu(care nu e tot timpul cea mai buna solutie).
Inconstient mi-am dorit tot timpul sa fiu perfecta ...and guess what? nu sunt...si nu am cum sa fiu...si nu e bine sa fiu perfecta ...nici macar nu e ok sa imi doresc asta.

Cel mai mult imi doresc acum...sa nu uit aceste lucruri...sa imi aduc aminte ce am invatat si sa ma comport ca atare.
Doare...al dracului...chiar doare...dar stiu ca e cel mai bun lucru care mi se putea intampla...si va multumesc din suflet tuturor celor care ati contribuit la asta.



  

The "E" spirit

I'm so glad, enthusiastic and motivated by my team...I simply adore them...they are 8 wonderful persons that I got the chance to work with. How beautiful ...9 different and special persons working together at their common passion ...fascinating .
When you have something like this , you can see the synergy , sparkles and ideas mixed with passion that are flowing in the air during the hole meeting...this really motivates me , gives me energy, gives me sense ...makes me go forward and makes me want more of this .
I hope this won't come to an end ...I know that realistically speaking this euphoria disappears after a time ...but I don't want it to go ...
The "E" spirit should be something that leasts forever ...

thanks a lot guys for this feeling ...

dreams

And things started to rush. I'm feeling the pressure , I'm feeling the fear , I'm facing the unknown : What will it happen ? Were will I be ? What will I do? Am I going to do what I planed or is there something else for me ?
Sometimes in life you make a lot of planes and you see your future so clear that you can’t even imagine that it won’t happen ...and then you’re stroked with some real facts. Maybe...just maybe what you always dreamed and planed won’t happen...maybe...just maybe...there are some facts that you didn’t take into consideration (and some of them you cannot control).
Do you stop then? Are you going to make other plans just because something is getting in the way of your dreams ?


My answer is no...I’m going towards my dreams and no matter the path , I know I can reach my dreams ...I believe in myself and what I want to do.
“There are two ways of meeting difficulties: You alter the difficulties or you alter yourself to meet them.”