Doamne cat de dureros e sa fii atat de gresit inteles. Probabil am o problema in exprimare, sau o atitudine interpretata gresit sau chiar o combinatie intre cele 2...ca sa nu mai zic de mimica fetei ...
Mi se intampla tot mai des ca ceea ce zic sau fac sa fie interpretat gresit. De ce? Nu pot sa imi dau seama ...cert e ca imi aduce multa durere in suflet si oameni care nu ma inteleg. Am ajuns ca inclusiv vechii prieteni si oameni care credeam ca ma stiu sa creada lucruri total false despre mine. Si doare a dracu de tare...
Ce ciudat...eu imi doresc sa fiu trainer...in mod normal ar trebui sa nu am probleme in exprimare, atitudine sau body language.
Cat de dureros e sa ai oameni care sa nu creada in tine...oameni care sa iti doreasca chiar raul...si de ce? dintr-un lucru/cuvant/fraza interpretata gresit. Si macar daca m-as simti cu "musca pe caciula" pt ceva...dar nici macar nu stiu unde am gresit. Ma tot intreb de unde apar toate astea? De unde? Vreau sa le opresc...dar cum?
Si doare si doare si doare ...
Friday, July 18, 2008
Monday, July 14, 2008
my day
It's super hot ...and this temperature irritates me ...makes me want to get away...
Besides that, today I had a great day. I am in Bucharest at a preparation with Human Invest on STLC a leadership program. We had some interesting discussions about our leadership experiences and leadership in general...it reminded me of my team...I so miss them. I never thought that I will miss them so much ...after all...my journey with them finished 5 months ago. Anyway ...I miss them a lot and I reviewed my experience with them...it was a powerful one and I still have all the memories fresh in my mind.
The most interesting part of the day was when we received our leadership reports (we had to make a test: both self rated and completed by my team members). It was so interesting to realize some things about myself. Like the fact that I tend to underestimate myself (in comparison with the observers that rated me), that I tend to transmit the wrong message. Meaning that there were some points that I really thought that I was great at (like talking about a future vision and inspire others) and I was demonstrated that was not so great at it. I also noticed that the persons that knew me better rated me much higher.
All in all, my conclusion was that I need to get more feed-back about my actions and myself to make sure that I'm understood and I have to know others and let others to know me better. Open...stop being afraid ... and invest time in others...
Another important thing in this day is that we have 1 year and a half...me and Steli ...I so love him and even though it's a cliche, he is the best thing in my life...I love you so much
Seems that I broke the ice and I'm writing on my blog again...everybody does that :)).
Besides that, today I had a great day. I am in Bucharest at a preparation with Human Invest on STLC a leadership program. We had some interesting discussions about our leadership experiences and leadership in general...it reminded me of my team...I so miss them. I never thought that I will miss them so much ...after all...my journey with them finished 5 months ago. Anyway ...I miss them a lot and I reviewed my experience with them...it was a powerful one and I still have all the memories fresh in my mind.
The most interesting part of the day was when we received our leadership reports (we had to make a test: both self rated and completed by my team members). It was so interesting to realize some things about myself. Like the fact that I tend to underestimate myself (in comparison with the observers that rated me), that I tend to transmit the wrong message. Meaning that there were some points that I really thought that I was great at (like talking about a future vision and inspire others) and I was demonstrated that was not so great at it. I also noticed that the persons that knew me better rated me much higher.
All in all, my conclusion was that I need to get more feed-back about my actions and myself to make sure that I'm understood and I have to know others and let others to know me better. Open...stop being afraid ... and invest time in others...
Another important thing in this day is that we have 1 year and a half...me and Steli ...I so love him and even though it's a cliche, he is the best thing in my life...I love you so much
Seems that I broke the ice and I'm writing on my blog again...everybody does that :)).
Sunday, July 13, 2008
need some time with myself
I feel lost...I don't know what to say about my life right now. I'm in that point when everything is happening so quickly and I can't find myself between all this.
I just came from out first conference that we organised as NTT ...it was an important learning and emotional experience for me. I learned some things about other people...and I got to recognise that I really don't have a strong self confidence. I get so easy affected on everything that others say about me, I care to much about that ...
I feel that I need some time to rediscover myself...time with myself
Sometimes I feel so lonely ...even though I know that I have my family and my boyfriend with me all the time...but I miss my friends , I miss so many ppl and I wish I could meet them...see them ...talk to them...but again what? how? when?
I was asked at this conference "If we (NTT mbs) still involve in our LCs ?" and it was so cruel ...i realized how much I miss AIESEC Cluj and my life 1 year ago...and all my friends there...everything changed ...
... i am lost ...and I need some time with myself...
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Saturday, May 10, 2008
He's a Keeper! |
 Your guy is a rare find: sweet, kind, and loyal. And as long as he doesn't have three nippples, You should seriously consider keeping him a long time Sometimes a girl can't see a good thing when she's got one So let me tell you: your guy is a gold medal boyfriend Just make sure you treat him right in return! |
Your Five Variable Love Profile |
 Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is medium. In general, you prefer to have only one love interest. But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long! There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering. Experience Level: Your experience level is high. You've loved, lost, and loved again. You have had a wide range of love experiences. And when the real thing comes along, you know it! Dominance: Your dominance is medium. You tend to be the one with more power. You aren't a total control freak in relationships.. But of course you don't mind getting you way! Cynicism: Your cynicism is low. You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance. No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter. You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate. And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon. Independence: Your independence is medium. In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time." You usually find it easy to be part of a couple. But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered. |
Your Five Variable Love Profile |
Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is medium. In general, you prefer to have only one love interest. But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long! There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering. Experience Level: Your experience level is high. You've loved, lost, and loved again. You have had a wide range of love experiences. And when the real thing comes along, you know it! Dominance: Your dominance is medium. You tend to be the one with more power. You aren't a total control freak in relationships.. But of course you don't mind getting you way! Cynicism: Your cynicism is low. You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance. No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter. You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate. And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon. Independence: Your independence is medium. In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time." You usually find it easy to be part of a couple. But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered. |
Sunday, April 6, 2008
What do you do when you loose it?
Did it ever happen to you to loose your motivation in doing something? All of a sudden....it's gone. and you know that you don't what to continue...it's just not for you...not right now. And you even start to realize that you had a wrong motivation from the beginning.
The question : should I give up?
The answers : Yes but no but yes bun no....actually yes...
You can't do something that doesn't motivate you and you're not passionated about...For what? You might as well use the same time for doing something with a bigger impact on yours and others life. And there might be a person better than you and more passionated and willing to do the things that you don't want...
Focus...how can you focus on 2 major different things in the same time? ...and make a good job at both?
What do you do when you realize you are not passionated about what you have to do?
The question : should I give up?
The answers : Yes but no but yes bun no....actually yes...
You can't do something that doesn't motivate you and you're not passionated about...For what? You might as well use the same time for doing something with a bigger impact on yours and others life. And there might be a person better than you and more passionated and willing to do the things that you don't want...
Focus...how can you focus on 2 major different things in the same time? ...and make a good job at both?
What do you do when you realize you are not passionated about what you have to do?
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