the physical extra mile

LP : always do the extra mile

I am the kind of pretty lazy girl when it comes to sports and movement. I enjoy staying, relaxing and doing nothing in a comfortable position .


So today, I went to the pool (like the 3rd time since I am in Paris....so....it's clear how lazy I can be , oh yes, and I ran 2 times :P ) . And I did 1 back and forth , than second, and it already started to be hard, than 3rd and I was thinking to stop. Then , I just said to myself : I want to do 5 back and forth so 10 times the lenght of the pool . And I worked so hard to do it ...and I succeed it .

But then , the friend that was with me said, I want to do 4 more lengths. I was shocked, he had already made by then around 16 , so I presumed he is running for 20 ..anyway , I said ....ok, I will wait for you.

But then I figure it out....ok, what if I do 2 more too (1 back and forth ) ? and I wasn't sure I can make it, but I did it, I swam 600 m today . I did the extra mile .

Transporting this to other subjects, sometimes, we go the extra mile cause it worth it and we can see it clearly. Even if it hurts we try to do more and more and push and push. But as I said in a previous post, know your limits and try to see when you are already bleeding and hurting yourself more than helping and doing good.

So for example, if today I was running for the target of 20, maybe at some point I couldn't have breath properly, my legs would hurt me blocking my walk for a few days , I would have a very bad sleep and I will not be able to do sports  anymore for around 6-7 days. So ? In comparison with the 12 , 20 does not give me a good report between benefits and costs paid .

But still...each time we can, we need and should do our best to take the extra mile

Happily ever after

LP : When love it's not enough

There are a few things about this. We first find out about love from stories , like the Beauty and the Beast, The little mermaid or Cinderella ...at least these are the "girls kinda stories " ...And we start to make an image about love that it's magical, that it's crossing boundaries, changes habits, overcomes differences in classes, and they all fall in love and they live "happily ever after ".
Than we see movies where everything is ending good, the first love it's the real love, they are all talking about "the one" , the perfect match and so on .
And somehow we take this image and project it to reality and we search for our prince all our lives , having false expectations and perspectives.

What I hate about all those stories (even if they do make me feel good and laugh or have a positive state) is that they never show what happens after....ok, they get together and they swear their love forever ...but what happens after ?

I guess that the reason why they do not show that is that ...after, comes the hard part...it's not only flowers blooming , and the moon and the rocks in the soul ....it's more heavy rocks all the way .

And ok, we love each other and we think it's forever or at least we hope, but than, first big fights come along....and than the next ones and the next ones ....and you wonder ...ok ...we have love , what else am I missing here ? Wasn't this the recipe ?

A lot....cause in my opinion, reality proves us that just love, it's never actually enough . There has to be a lot of other ingredients like : trust, security, respect, respect of boundaries and limits, respect of individuality, maturity, knowing,understanding and accepting each other,  having the right expectations, sincerity and will to go on and have a real mature and healthy relationship .
Wait....so I have to do all these things in the same time ?
Well yes, these and much more ....the list can go on so you name it.

Love is not simple at all...and for sure it has it's very very beautiful parts and benefits, but it also has it's difficulties and challenges.

And it depends on each and every one of us what we make out of these experiences. Sometimes we meet people that we match perfect with , but there is no spark, no chemistry thus no love. Sometimes we meet people whom we love, desire and feel passion for, but we find out that we don't match .

Watching older couples still together (like my mom and my dad ) I can see that the truth is somewhere in the middle. First, yes, they still have strong feelings about each other (even if they don't express it publicly so much) , they do  have some (or a lot of fights ) , they still are going in the same direction, but most important, they continue and persevere in being together .

As a friend of V. said "We fall in love by accident , but we chose to stay in love"

It's always a choice, my choice, your choice ...

"When you want something, all the universe conspires" ....hold it ....really ?

LP : Once you've establish a new goal you start observing everything around that it's related to it

Well...I guess Coelho was kinda right with the too much popular and overused "When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it ". So ....dear Coelho....once again life proved me that you are not saying bullshits, even if your messages are a little too direct for me :P.

So yes, I have decided to open a new blog, this time on a very precise subject, which is Fashion, my dearest passion and hobby (btw stay tuned for the news :P ).

This idea came to me in a very good moment when I already have the majority of the ingredients in my hands . The only thing to do next is .....start :D . But ever since that moment , I am observing everything related to this. I always criticized people on the street regarding their clothes ...but well...now even more...I can see the slightest detail that it's not in the right place or not the happiest choice . I can see the beautiful things, I can draw different (more mature and attentive to detail) , I do my photos in a certain way, I look for information and supporters everywhere, lot's of random brainstorming on the name :P .

So yes...well...if you want to do something....I am not sure if it's the universe or yourself that it's facilitating all that you need....but still....you think and act in that direction . You start to see things that you didn't see before, see opportunities that you were just not looking for or just ignore  and you start to share your project with others ....getting their support and their ideas and in this way helping you to develop it.

 So dear Coelho ....I agree...but not quite.....I think that it's more about me that it's making it happen, and not the WHOLE universe ....I use the universe in the way that I need ...so dear....it's still me the one in charge here ...as always

learn what are your own limits and respect them

LP : learn what are your  own limits and respect them

Do you know your limits ?
Well...yes, I recognize them when I get there.
Hmm... are your sure ? Don't you just try to push them further ?  
Well, yes, I am cause this is about expending your power of endurance .
Ok Ok, but until where?
Until I cannot take it anymore.

And I can go on....cause when we talk about limits we just don't know where to stop....and if we should. Maybe it's just better to go on and never give up. We all admire ambitious persons. But what about Machiavelli : for real the purpose is excusing all the means ? Ok....than what about : the journey is the reward? We want to get to a certain point but what if all the road is full with stops and thorns ? until when should you take it ? Sometimes you just cannot stop , or turning back is not an option, but for the times where you have options, you need to know also when to stop and take another road.  Maybe you are lost and you though that you are on the right way.

What is even harder is that sometimes we are so concentrated on getting over those limits that we just do not understand what freedom and happiness means . And we go , and go , and take more and more and when we get to the end of the stairs we realize that we put the stairs on the wrong wall.....and than ? WTF ? this is not what I wanted ....Well....next time just establish better what you want, what you can take and what you cannot take .


So what are your limits ? Acknowledge them and understand until where you can compromise ....

The message we transmit though our appearance

LP of the day : Take care of the messages you  transmit trough your behavior, dressing style, accessories, make-up, words, etc

I had this discussion several times with different people. Not about a large concept about personal branding, but a more specific one, which is , what is the message you transmit to the opposite sex  through  your appearance . 

Strange....cause we get used to a certain way of dressing and arranging ourselves and we forget what is it that we transmit .

So, dressing a little sexy, putting a strident make-up ( which cam be just a red lipstick) and having big earrings can already transmit the message ...I am sexy, I want to seduce and even I am available. It's that simple ...Not even adding a certain look into a boys eyes ....and you are done....labeled placed .

But well...does that mean that we don't have to wear anything sexy anymore ? if we don't like to be approached  ? Well...up to you but it's important at least to acknowledge it .

So....take care of the message you transmit

Program

Since today I am very sensible and all I can do is read people's blog, I got to Silvia's and I've got inspired by a movie she posted.

It got in my hands exactly but exactly in the right moment after a period of excesses and no personal effectiveness.

So, in this perspective I am taking some new commitments to myself for the next 30 days...so from 5  August to 3 September included :

• I will read  at least one article / news per day , even if I am bored and not interested
• I will read at least 5 pages from my books / day , even if I am tired and not in the mood
• I will draw everyday even if very little 
• I will write a post on my blog everyday , containing a learning point or something that I am thinking about, even if  I  have the impression I don't have any ideas
• I will do one nice thing for a friend/someone close , even if it's just saying hi or listening 
• I will wake up in the moment that my clock rings , and not postpone the moment , even if I am very tired (if that is the case I will just put the clock 10-20 later when I will go to sleep)
• I will put all the things that I am using back to their places (within the next 30 min max), even if I am on  the rush, tired, not in the mood 

Since I am very kind with myself and I am always pushing my limits to unhealthy levels, 
I will set to myself the following limits :

• never overcome in one month the limit of 100 euros for shopping 
• shopping includes : clothes, shoes, bags, accessories, cosmetics that I don't die without (like perfume and  cremes )
• shopping does not include : food, stuff needed in the house, cosmetics that are a must 
• no exceptions excepted what so ever, no matter how nice the things are or how much I think that I need them 
• money do not report from a month to another...so I will have the 100 euros credit just for one month 
• I will not go out more than in 3 days / week 
• reasons : I loose time if it's more than this , I loose money, I don't give time to myself, I am not efficient and I don't concentrate on what is really important
• going out includes : going to  a bar , pub, social gatherings 
• going out does not include : making sports, taking a walk, shopping , other administrative things
• exceptions : when my parents or friends will come to me  I will join them in whatever they want to do 
• I will never be on minus again on my bank card
• even if this month it's hard, in next months I will always check my finances and plan in order to be sustainable and not get depressed cause I don't have any money anymore
• exceptions : if  I will join a trip outside the country - traveling being the only thing that I believe worth spending 
• Never let a week pass without at least 2 days of sports / movement / message 
• sports means : swimming, running, making inside exercises, massage, ping pong, walking more than 1 hour, biking, fitness, etc 
• even if I am tired, not in the mood, don't want to go down again the 7 floors , doing something else, it's cold outside, being in another country/city , there is always the possibility of making inside exercises or a massage 
• no exceptions permitted

That is it for now....they are enough ...now I will make a tracking list in order to track all my changes and after 15 days I am allowed to  add other things to my list. Now I have to focus on these .

Good luck Cris, I know you can do it and it's very very good for your goals and your discipline.

6 months

Life it's so funny sometimes, but for sure very rewarding if you want to see the full half.

I came in Paris on 13 of January ...yes I know, the luckiest number ever....so lucky that I got rubbed in the first hour. Than a weird start with a lot of challenges and happenings.

Still, the best thing that happened was to find a very special person...soon after my arrival. He became my friend, my entertainment, my laughs, my reason to sleep late, my way of not feeling alone . Than it became my passion, my challenge, my adrenalin , my drug, my peace, my life, my love.  

I have been on  a roller coaster ever since...climbing up and down to the highest highs and the lowest lows . I lived with intensity everything sometimes having the impression that my heart will explode of too many feelings, either positive or negative .

I have been questioning life, myself and the concept of relationship, not knowing even at this moment what is right and wrong ...still trying to figure it out. I have been living the best days of  my life feeling in love, feeling loved and enjoying life at it's full . I have been fighting and experience depression as I didn't wanted to even think that I could.

He is one of the smartest many that I have ever known , the most passionate by far, very intense in everything, a very kind and the most loving possible, expressive until the point where you can ask yourself if you ever knew what that meant before you meet him , moody sensitive and open, direct, critic, impulsive, ambitious and always persevering , fighting for love, fighting for his goal, fighting for the better, fighting for an ideal relationship and love. His jealous tendency is not always one of being possessive but rather of being protective toward those he  love, so it's important to understand how he works in order to prevent conflicts and hurting . A wonderful friend and person that it's always there to give you an advice, a shoulder to cry, will  listen and  help, will always provide solutions, think in plans, understand what you feel and go beyond the surface trying to figure out what is it that you really are, think and feel. Very loyal and kind, but you have to win his trust .
He made me feel safe and secure, never feeling afraid by his side, protecting me in every sense he knew.
Somehow it's very easy to misunderstand him and to rush to wrong conclusions. When fighting he is intransigent sticking to what he believes is right . So the best way is to prevent and avoid the situations where you can enter in a conflict. Cause they always have the final word.
He fears failures and will do everything necessary not to get there  or avoid it. So...he will fight...until the end...or give up before loosing..
Very strong and manly ....he made me feel like a woman in the best way possible.
Even so, if you give him the needed love and security, he will make you feel like a princess, like the most important person in the whole world. Will appreciate everything there is to appreciate and make you feel wanted and loved and venerated like a goddess .

I discovered that changes are possible even if very difficult and demanding .
I discovered there exists a person in the world that it's so complex and complete in the directions of my wishes and desires .
I discovered that continents cannot brake a feeling unless you don't take care .

But we screwed it up ...
We were not able to give up on some of our own ways, failing to understand each others expectations....or at least failing in the practice of this.
You never know what is the best...and sometimes life it's stupid by not aligning what we want with what we need. Cause we are blind in love, and we are sensitive in love, like a small kid in a dark wood ...not knowing where to and how to feel safe.We are impulsive in decision , fail to see the right path and taking the one that we see.

Life is cruel and we do not know all the time how to change it's course .

6 months of crazy love...that you can only see in movies ....I even envy myself to have lived this .


But ....it's 6 months that I am replaying over and over again....and it's the best movie that I could have every imagined ...my play ...with 2 main actors...but as always...somehow I will end alone on the stage....